BITCHES...

You know how people always say bitches got cranky..and not until today that I realized that,..well,I don't think I'll write here..maybe in the private one..I don't want the BITCH to get all woosed up..anyway,I just wanna give a short letter of anger to you..

dear unnamed person,lps ko dh malukan aku dpn sume org,JANGAN HARAP LA AKU NAK HORMAT KO!!!!btw,people never like nor respect u..p/s,yg dh tau tu syp2 je la.. ;P

A yes..

You know how life can be,it changes all the time..but are you ready for the changes,that's the real question..One of the questions I always asked myself and somehow I always find myself answering the answer as NO..speaking of changes,well,as you all know 2011 is here..HELLO 2011...everyone say hello 2011..haha..anyway,when people say new year or tahun baru,people will always ask ape azam tahun ni?? (or maybe it's just me,but whatever)and at that time I will find myself in dilema...

After a lot of thinking and a whole lot of flashback to the past,I finally decided that the right answer is to change the answer from NO to a YESS!! <3

P/S:I only say yes when I needed to ;P

I have a dream

The teachers always asked us every single year "what do you want to do with your life?" or "ape azam awak tahun ni?"..and the answer to the 2nd question usually "puasa penuh dan dpt no. 1 sepanjang tahun"..even I think the answer is too common..I mean I really wanna make a different answer but I don't have any idea..for the 1st question,usually when my teacher asked,all my classmates know exactly what the want...a pilot,a doctor(what a common answer),a police,a teacher and whatever else they want...and me??I used to want to be a hotel owner but then I change my mind and go with lawyer instead and now I've been thinking what I really want to be cause whether I want it or not,I'm getting older and I know people usually say "you are still young,chill...you have plenty of time"and that's kinda true...my dad always say "don't think too much about the future..think about the present first"..I guess he's kinda right...

The reason I'm saying this,lately my sister got 8A's for PMR but she got a C for kokurikulum...and it freaks me out when my mom said we really need to improve our kokurikulum marks or our dreams to get to one of the best university in the world would just remain a dream...she said,there this one case a student who got 7A's got into university instead of the 8A's just because of the kokurikulum marks...I mean,seriously..they wanted a slightly less smart kid into their university...I mean,come on....it really freak the hell out of me...so,by next year,I have to go to every single kokurikulum activty they held(yeah,like that ever going to happen)...well,that all going to happen if I really want to move forward..the problem is,I really don't want to wake up early just to go to school...hhmmm(sigh)I guess I'll just figure it out somehow...

k then,I think that's it for the night..good night,sleep tight,don't let the bed bugs bite.. : ) <3

well,at least one thing I know,I have a dream,a song to sing,to help me cope,with anything

Loneliness

Ever since I got into high school,I don't know why,maybe it's just my thing but I felt very lonely...now that I mention that,I think I may be missing my primary school life,..one by one,I saw my friends met new friends,share lots of common things together and become a part of their clique..I totally understand that..I mean it's the cycle of life..you meet new friends during primary school,become best friends,got into high school,meet new friends,forget old friends,become best friends and it repeats all over again and I definitely understand that but somehow why ain't I be on that new cycle all my friends are all on now...I mean,come on..I'm lonely over here...

Now that we're on this topic,I can't stop myself from remembering the fun life I used to have..it used to take me 5 years to find true friends..best friends...am I going to take this much time too to make best friends...don't get me wrong,I love my new friends at smkpj,they're awesome but somehow there were not that much,how do I say this..clique between me and them... 

I know I sound pathetic but it's the truth 

I guess it's going to take more time for me to become part of their group then...well,life has to go on...I guess that's it for now...

Broken Heart

My counselor teacher always say things like "it's normal for girls to have a crush on boys and usually it ended with a broken heart but it will never last very long"..Well,I guess she's right...but exactly does it mean by crush...what's the difference between love and crush..Usually,girls my age attracted to boys by their look or body or whatever they called...and I used to be that too..but then,a boy really changed my perspective towards boys...

He was my best friend...we started off as strangers  but then he really get to know me better and I get to know him better...He was definitely different from every other boys...and at one point,he knew me better that anyone else did...He knew what my likes and dislikes,how do I feel by just seeing my texts...I believed he's the one...

But then,an air crash landed...I found out that he was just using me to get to my friends(not one but two).. my heart just broke into pieces but somehow he didn't see it so,I guess he didn't know me better than anyone else in fact I think he didn't even know me..girls hate it when you use them to get to their friend and that includes me...and after that thing happened,somehow we lost our connection...I didn't know anything about you anymore...well,that definitely ended our friendship...

He definitely changes my perspective towards boys...He shows me boys are all shallows and never wanted a girl just to be his best friends...well,nice job...You did it..I can't give my heart to anyone anymore and it's all because of you..GOOD JOB...

P/S:I wish you both the best of luck and may you found happiness together

SHOPPING!!!!!

Fuhh...how tiring...semalam my mummy,sis and I went to KL for shopping spree(although if you put it like that,it doesn't sound right)actually tujuan sebenarnye nk gune kupon yand Opah Chu kasi 4 our birthday(I'm still counting on the other RM50)the kupon can only be used in Parkson,so Parkson,off we go...at first,I don't know nak beli ape..but then,my sis put out that she wanted to buy a new bag for tuisyen and then it occur to me that girls my age nowadays semua dah ade handbags sendiri and how hard it is to take stuff around when I'm out.,.So,handbags/travel bag here we go...

At first we went to Parkson the designer department (a.k.a gucci,guess,elle)I thought the price would be cheaper because it's christmas time again,...well,I was half right...All the designer bags that are not that beautiful were really within my price range but the one that is AWESOME is definitely out of my range...For example,there's this really amazing blue Guess bag,and it's perfect...not too big,not too small..just right...and it totally show maturity and teenager at the same time but guess what the price of the 'guess'..it's RM179 and that is after 30% off...Can you imagine how much that really cost...I was totally on the down side at that time...

After lunch with my dad at Kenny Rogers Roasters(which was totally great)we went back into Parkson and decide what to buy...I settled on this gorgeous polka dots handbags like...it's kinda big but it would be useful when I'll be travelling...the only cons was the price..It was RM75 and Opah Chu only gave RM50 kupon...thank god my dad gave RM200 to my mom as her shopping money and my mom doesn't really wanted to buy anything at that time so she gave extra RM 50 so that my sis n I could buy our bags(in my sister's case bag and pencil case)

Then, we went to Auntie Anne's Pretzels(I totally love it) and I ordered a chocolate eclair...my sis said she's not full(or as I said FOOL)and she wanted some ice cream..well,dah alang2 dia order,I pon order la skali...and then,we went to Bread Story beli roti lagi(hehe...cuti ni berat bertambah-tambah la)then,mummy tanye nk tak pegi SOGO cuz sogo on the way je(kitorang naik LRT,kene berhenti jgk)I don't mind nk gi mana2 tp my sis kata x nk...so blk trs ke Pandan Jaya la..

Well,that's it for now..Until I have the mood to write again...bye : D <3

Pros and Cons of 2011

Wow!!it's been so long since I wrote in blog and when I say long,I really mean very LONG....a lot have happened throughout the year...and it would be a waste of energy if I write in here...I think my brain can keep up with the memory...but then,what's the use of blog...maybe I'll write it down when I have enough energy(and interests)...
Well,as people realized,2011 is coming and that is bad news for me..although that can be good news too...the bad news is 2011 just going to end my school holiday and I haven't finished my school homework..I don't see the point of school holiday if you are going to get homework to do during the holiday..
but,like people said,every cloud has a silver lining...and here is my silver lining,next year would be the first year I would be a senior(well at least in the afternoon session)..I don't really see how that is a good thing but still,whatever...